Sad should never be wrapped

Had I known how to save a life. I use to sing that song at the top of my lungs. I thought-wow this song is real. I’m sitting here now recalling the lyrics…I would have stayed up with you all night had I known how to save a life…but does that save a life? How many nights have you stayed awake to watch a person … Continue reading Sad should never be wrapped

Because I have changed

4/10/2019 Entrance ceremony was today. If you have never heard of or seen an entrance ceremony, you need to google it. The gym is decorated and parents, students and staff welcome new students (1st graders). The band is playing, everybody claps for an extended period of time while the new class members walk in. There are flowers, music, clapping, and speeches to welcome the new … Continue reading Because I have changed

Beverly Hills, 90210

Time…the only thing that never stops. A flyer was hanging in the staff room where I was teaching third grade. That was 2.5 years ago when I applied to be an ALT in Japan. The first year, I did not get the job. I was devastated. January came around, 2018 and I thought…I’m going to try one more time. I applied and interviewed for the … Continue reading Beverly Hills, 90210

Countdown

I love when I am reading a book and I recognize the emotion and meaning behind the title of the book or even the chapter. My title for my blog is Rubee Miles. Rubee Miles because if I ever have a daughter, that is what I want to name her. The meaning this name has come to be deep in my heart and explainable beyond … Continue reading Countdown

Gas Tank Full of Freedom

12/10/18 + At the top of my TO DO list for Japan, I have: Fall in Love. Above all else, while I am here my goal is to fall in love, with myself.  Oh my goodness. It has almost been a month since I went home to the USA. Since I have been back-it has been a whirlwind. I’ve been talking with my friends and brother … Continue reading Gas Tank Full of Freedom

A little Sparkle in a Big World

This blog is a bit scattered. My anxiety has been keeping me up at night and my brain has been running in circles thinking about issues close to my heart, problems close to the community and universal tragedies that I cannot change. This has been in the works for over a week now… Memories. . . I remember being eight years old. You were looking … Continue reading A little Sparkle in a Big World

Beautifully Painful

“There was a time when the world was enormous: spanning the vast, almost infinite boundaries of your neighborhood. The place where you grew up, where you didn’t think twice about playing on someone else’s lawn. The street was your territory that occasionally got invaded by a passing car. It was where you didn’t get called home until after it was dark. And all the people, … Continue reading Beautifully Painful

How’s Your Heart?

How Are You? [The person asking (generally) doesn’t care what your answer is] I’m good, thanks! [The person answering is (generally) lying.]  How are you? [Automatic response with no regard for the answer] I’m good. [Lie because does that person care if you are having the worst day and you are holding back tears?]  In Japan-there is no “small talk”. I have asked my friends-what … Continue reading How’s Your Heart?

Chichi

One’s destination is never a place, but always a new way of seeing things -Henry Miller I’ve been in Japan one month. One month (a little longer now). It seems like I’ve been here far less time than that…and far longer at the same time. Feeling Opposite emotions is a hard one for me-similar to HappySad. School started back at home. I’m so thankful to be … Continue reading Chichi

I look for You in a Strangers Smile

I’ve talked to the stars since I can remember… about my life, hopes, dreams, family and friends. I am still doing this. Each day I am on an adventure. I still cannot believe that. I’ve spent many extra hours sleeping this week  and I hate to do it when there is this new world below my feet (but I must need it). I’ve had many … Continue reading I look for You in a Strangers Smile